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Lors 🌈's avatar

Putting my ❤️ here because 333 ✨🙏🏻🥰

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Chante’ Dionne's avatar

The title caught my attention lol I instantly said " ME TOO!". lol At times, I tell myself like "Dang, I wish I was still ignorant. Ignorant -unselfaware- people have so much fun " lol It feels like once you know better, you have to do better which is so bittersweet but more worth it than anything. Thank you for sharing! ALL of it resonantes.

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Kali's avatar

Thank you for sharing this. It touches on an experience I feel so deeply

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

So glad this piece found you 🤎

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Kezia's avatar

Beautiful. Thank you <3

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

Thank you🤎

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jon's avatar

Mariah, you've touched on something ancient and unwavering. I see you now, and I'm reminded of my path and the trails and travails. Each victory emboldens me. I wish that for you!!

Jon

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

Thank you so much Jon, I really appreciate these warm words.

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Chanel Riggle's avatar

This arrested me. I've felt much of this without expressing the words as succinctly as you have here. Thanks <3

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

I’m so glad they landed 🤎

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QueenEsther's avatar

Healing is a mystery and it takes good enough time. Be patient and one day you'll remember the pain and feelings no more. 🫶🏽

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

I claim this. Thank you.

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Obomighie Joan's avatar

I'm tired of trying.

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jon's avatar

Never journey down the path to healing alone! We are not meant to.

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

💔

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Erin's avatar

I resonate with this so much. It brought me to tears. It’s heavy but we must go on 💕

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

We must.

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Elizabeth Grace Martinez's avatar

“I yearn for a softness that years built on survival doesn’t afford” I feel this deep in my soul

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

💔

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Maria Zeta's avatar

Thank you for these words they allowed me to cry because this is how I feel and maybe I’m feeling not just for me but everyone that was an eye opener maybe for people who refuse or don’t want to feel maybe it’s just good to allow ourselves to cry or to feel and knowing our heart can love it all thank you

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

Maria, I am so glad you let your tears flow. Thank you for being here🤎

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Dean Michael Love's avatar

I feel this. Deeply. Thanks for sharing. It’s so tiring and yet we must keep going, because the alternative is worse.

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

So so so much worse. I couldn’t imagine a world where nobody committed to the task of healing.

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Dean Michael Love's avatar

I couldn’t imagine that either. 🙏🏻

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Viola Weinhold's avatar

Unswerving and unlearning. Yes. How tiring it is to heal and to die to the old story. Painful patient work. I feel this. How wearying it is.

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

“To die to the old story” … especially one woven into our bloodline for generations 😮‍💨

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Taylor Ferreira's avatar

WOW this is breathtakingly beautiful. Thank you for sharing. Heard. 🙏🏼❤️

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

Thank you for reading 🤎

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Kim Bernard's avatar

This piece speaks to me! You have so beautifully captured the exquisite pain in healing, the courageous choice in feeling unfelt feelings from generations passed, the grace of forgiving the unforgivable, and the strength the move about a world that can feel so empty and hostile. The will to live.

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

Whew, yes Kim. It takes a lot. A lot of undoing, unlearning, doing, and learning and it seems endless. But within “the will to live” it must be done.

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Nicole DeMario's avatar

I feel this inner exhaustion so keenly. When is it enough, I wonder...

When is the way easy…

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

Is the way ever easy? Or is healing always this rough😮‍💨

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Nicole DeMario's avatar

(Smiling) I think it can be; perhaps it only requires a shift. I’ve decided this is my way forward:)

May you always have what you need…

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Mariah Maddox's avatar

<3

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