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Putting my ❤️ here because 333 ✨🙏🏻🥰

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The title caught my attention lol I instantly said " ME TOO!". lol At times, I tell myself like "Dang, I wish I was still ignorant. Ignorant -unselfaware- people have so much fun " lol It feels like once you know better, you have to do better which is so bittersweet but more worth it than anything. Thank you for sharing! ALL of it resonantes.

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Sep 7Liked by Mariah Maddox

Thank you for sharing this. It touches on an experience I feel so deeply

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So glad this piece found you 🤎

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Jul 1Liked by Mariah Maddox

Beautiful. Thank you <3

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Thank you🤎

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Jun 30Liked by Mariah Maddox

Mariah, you've touched on something ancient and unwavering. I see you now, and I'm reminded of my path and the trails and travails. Each victory emboldens me. I wish that for you!!

Jon

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Thank you so much Jon, I really appreciate these warm words.

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This arrested me. I've felt much of this without expressing the words as succinctly as you have here. Thanks <3

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I’m so glad they landed 🤎

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Healing is a mystery and it takes good enough time. Be patient and one day you'll remember the pain and feelings no more. 🫶🏽

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I claim this. Thank you.

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Sounds like you’re healed, for now

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<3

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Jun 18Liked by Mariah Maddox

I'm tired of trying.

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Jun 30Liked by Mariah Maddox

Never journey down the path to healing alone! We are not meant to.

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💔

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Jun 14Liked by Mariah Maddox

I resonate with this so much. It brought me to tears. It’s heavy but we must go on 💕

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We must.

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“I yearn for a softness that years built on survival doesn’t afford” I feel this deep in my soul

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💔

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Jun 13Liked by Mariah Maddox

Thank you for these words they allowed me to cry because this is how I feel and maybe I’m feeling not just for me but everyone that was an eye opener maybe for people who refuse or don’t want to feel maybe it’s just good to allow ourselves to cry or to feel and knowing our heart can love it all thank you

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Maria, I am so glad you let your tears flow. Thank you for being here🤎

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Jun 13Liked by Mariah Maddox

I feel this. Deeply. Thanks for sharing. It’s so tiring and yet we must keep going, because the alternative is worse.

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So so so much worse. I couldn’t imagine a world where nobody committed to the task of healing.

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Jun 21Liked by Mariah Maddox

I couldn’t imagine that either. 🙏🏻

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Unswerving and unlearning. Yes. How tiring it is to heal and to die to the old story. Painful patient work. I feel this. How wearying it is.

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“To die to the old story” … especially one woven into our bloodline for generations 😮‍💨

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Jun 12Liked by Mariah Maddox

WOW this is breathtakingly beautiful. Thank you for sharing. Heard. 🙏🏼❤️

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Thank you for reading 🤎

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Jun 12Liked by Mariah Maddox

This piece speaks to me! You have so beautifully captured the exquisite pain in healing, the courageous choice in feeling unfelt feelings from generations passed, the grace of forgiving the unforgivable, and the strength the move about a world that can feel so empty and hostile. The will to live.

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Whew, yes Kim. It takes a lot. A lot of undoing, unlearning, doing, and learning and it seems endless. But within “the will to live” it must be done.

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